LONGING …

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Nu am avut multe de spus in ultima vreme pentru ca simt ca intr-un fel mi-am pierdut “vocea”. Nu din lipsa de timp sau de inspiratie. Doar ca mi-am luat o vreme sa imi golesc mintea. Si nu imi place sa scriu doar de dragul de a adauga o postare noua pe blog. Asa ca am stat de-o parte o vreme. In tot acest timp, am luat fiecare moment pe rand si m-am bucurat de lucrurile marunte. Unii ar numi-o rutina. Alcatuita din drumuri de la munca acasa si invers, cu multe momente de fericire intre. Din pacate nu apreciem deloc aceste momente de liniste. Am avut partea mea de momente mai putin bune, iar atunci cand nu se intampla nimic lucurile sunt departe de a fi plictisitoare. Ca sa fiu sincera, imi e frica sa nu se sparga cumva aceasta bula momentana de calm. Ma opresc si imi scot gandul asta din minte si merg mai departe. Pana la urma asta e viata, un labirint in intuneric cu suisuri, coborasuri si blocaje la care nu te astepti.

Generatia mea isi petrece majoritatea timpului visand la ce au altii, sau la o viata pe care o vezi doar in filme. Si iata-ma pe mine, mergand la munca si nu intr-o vacanta de lux. Asta in timp ce ii multumesc soarelui ca straluceste ca intr-o zi de vara in noiembrie. Ma opresc si “vobesc” cu o pisica fericita ca o mangaie si pe ea cineva. Ma bucur de o cina cu o prietena buna si apoi imi beau cafeaua dimineata. Ma simt super incarcata cu energie dupa ce plec de la sala. Si mi se umple inima de fericire cand primesc o ploae de pupici iubitori. Si visez si eu la ceva: ca aceste momente sa tot continue. Pentru ca asta este fericirea mea: sa gasesc bucurie zi de zi in viata mea (im)perfecta.

I haven’t had much to say lately, mostly because I feel like I’ve lost my “voice” somehow. It’s not that I don’t have time or inspiration. I took a while to clear my head. And because I don’t like to write just for the sake of filling another page on a blog, I figured it’s best to stay quiet. I’ve spent my time taking life step by step and enjoying the little things. You could say it’s a routine consisting of work-home-work-home routes and snippets of happiness in-between. But I don’t think we fully appreciate these moments; sailing on calm waters, I call them. I’ve had my share of rough waters during my time, and nothing happening is far off from being boring. I am just existing, and to be honest, I am scared that something will burst my calm bubble. I shake this thought out of my head and keep going. After all, that’s what life is: a rollercoaster ride in the dark with twists and turns when you least expect them.

My generation spends most of its time longing for things that others have, or for a life that exists only in the movies. And here I am, going to work, and not at a fancy resort. Thanking the sun for shining so bright on a November morning giving summer vibes when the summer is long gone. Stopping to play with a stray cat that meows with content each time I pet her head. Happily enjoying a dinner with a good friend. Drinking my coffee in the morning. Feeling those good vibes after going to the gym. Having my heart filled with happiness after being showered with loving kisses. Also longing for something: for this to go on. Because this is what my happiness is: finding joy every day in my not so perfect-perfect life.

 

8 thoughts on “LONGING …

  1. A wonderful, inspiring post.
    I’ve been silent for quite a different reason – I was quite ill – but now recovering slowly it’s, as you say, how wonderful the ‘everyday’ can be. I have another reason to be happy, I understood the whole thing in Romanian, meeting only one word I didn’t know – alcuita!
    I am beginning now to feel like writing a post. Although I said a little while ago I was changing my blog to concentrate on my writing, the next post will about the superb, caring hospital team who looked after me during and after what I found the most unpleasant surgical procedure I’ve experienced.
    It’s no coincidence that I’ve read your post this morning with Spring-like sun pouring through the window after days of pouring rain.
    Thank you x

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    1. It’s great to hear from you! I was wondering why you did not post anything recently, and now I know. I hope your health improves soon. We often ignore our health until something happens, and only then we realize how important it is. It looks like my post came at a good time, and I am happy about that. Maybe I should use more challenging words in Romanian on a future post. Even if you will write about an unpleasant experience, I look forward to your next post. I also wrote about my health and surgeries back when I had health problems. I figured that someone who is going through something similar can relate to my experience. Take care, I look forward to reading your future posts 🙂

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  2. ” I’ve had my share of rough waters during my time, and nothing happening is far off from being boring. ”

    This is so very true !! Only people who have gone through really rough and challenging times know what a big luxury it is when “nothing (bad / wrong) is happening” !!

    Very well written !!

    And the fact I, being in a totally different country and time-zone, can relate to a routine day of your’s tell us how small the world is 😃😃

    Keep writing and spreading hope !!

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