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Looking Forward To …

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Cum anul se apropie de final, incepem sa tragem linie si sa ne gandim la ce a fost bine si ce a fost rau. Si abia astept sa vad ce imi va aduce 2023 (puteti citi despre o parte din motivele pentru acest lucru in postarea mea anterioara). Dar, daca ati citit deja, stiti ca ultimii ani nu au fost prea buni cu mine. De fapt, au fost exceptional de prosti. Asa ca acum ca lucrurile bune au inceput sa se adune in ultimele luni, uneori imi trece prin minte ca 2023 o sa imi ia totul. Nu e neaparat gandire negativista, ci mai debraba un mecanism de auto-aparare ca sa pot fi pregatita IN CAZ CA … poate ceva nu merge bine.

As the year nears an end, we start to draw the line and think about what was good and what went wrong. And I’m looking forward to what 2023 will bring (you can read part of the reasons in my previous post). But, if you took the time to read it, you’ll know by now that the past years were not extraordinarily good. If anything, they were exceptionally bad. So, even if good things have been piling up for me in the past few months, I sometimes think that 2023 will take it all away. It’s not necessarily negative thinking but more of a self-defense mechanism so that I can be mentally prepared IN CASE IF … anything goes awry.

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Change

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Am lipsit o vreme lunga de pe blog si desi am tot vrut sa revin nu prea mi-am gasit vocea. S-au schimbat multe de la ultima mea postare si nu neaparat in sensul bun.

In timp ce lumea avea batai de cap cu Covid-19 si era ocupata cu discutii pro si contra despre vaccin, eu imi duceam propria lupta. Am avut cateva probleme de sanatate pe care a trebuit sa le rezolv, in timp ce iubirea vietii mele trecea prin ceva similar. Au fost … multe eventiment care s-au desfasurat intr-un timp scurt.

M-am simtit ca si cand am trecut prin iad si cand ma pregateam sa ies, mi-am pierdut tatal. L-am pierdut din nou dupa ce acum cativa ani a ales sa plece si sa isi intemeieze o alta familie. Doar ca de data asta l-am pierdut definitiv. A fost un roller coaster de emotii care a mers intr-o singura directie, in jos.

I’ve been absent quite a lot from here, wanting to return to writing but not really finding my inner voice. A lot of things have changed in my life since my last post, and not in a good way.

While the world was dealing with Covid-19 and raising its voices over vaccine pros and cons, I was fighting my battles.
I’ve had some health issues I had to deal with while watching the love of my life go through similar issues. It was … a lot to take in in such a short time.


It felt like I’d been through hell, and just as I found my way out, I lost my dad. I lost him again after he decided to leave and start a new family a few years ago. But this time, I’ve lost him for good.
It’s been a roller coaster with only one direction, down, and a hell of a ride.

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